Miedo
It took me a while to realise that many things scare me.
I am afraid of fate.
I am afraid of falling in love.
I am afraid of setting foot on unknown territory.
I am afraid of myself.
I guess one of the reasons I've started this blog is to sort out the little complexities of life. I turn 22 in a few days time, realising that I've not grown up much since I left high school.
Yeah, that sucks.
People tell me they want to live my life. Funny how people would think that I am constantly cheery and carefree 24/7. Truth is I do ache as much as other supposed mortals. And sometimes smiling can be a pain on my ass.
I guess I've always been lucky. Many things could have turned out worse. Lyn's never been beautiful. Behind that self-inflicted ideal facade, she's been dumped, trashed and disposed more than you'll ever know.
You thought she could get any guy she wants.
You're pretty much wrong.
Which is why I am posting on this site rather than the more popular one.
I kinda need to vent and hide my vulnerability at the same time, so I hope my friends will not stumble onto this post.
god, what the fuck am I waffling about???
For strangers out there, I hope you can relate.
At the end of the day, the fun-loving Lyn you thought you knew will always be wretched.
Full Stop.
1 Comments:
You are immortal because you write. Therefore you are powerful. You shouldn't be afraid of yourself.
Love is dangerous so I too am afraid of falling in love. I'm sure you as well as I know how silly that sounds.
I just think it's a shame you can't see how beautiful you really are as a person. There will always be people around who will hurt you. Learn from those experiences. It won't happen to you twice.
You'll eventually get what you want, trust me.
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