Why am I not Smiling?

The tears have long gone and yet I am not smiling
Why? Is there an empty heart in me that is ailing?

But they say that pain and sorrow come and go
But my heart lingers so endlessly not long ago

Is this the path I was born to take?
Is this the smile that I long to fake?

If crying is a game, I am not but one
I face it with courage, but broke to none

Ancient wounds live selfishly in my present scars
They devour my desire to trust my dreams to the stars

If a moon has long gone, the sun rises
Begins another day with hopeful surprises

Then why am I not smiling?